Sadness

It was announced today that Jayviel Batista was found in the Lehigh canal. 
He was autistic, unable to talk, alone and in the dark with no shoes, coat or socks. 
He wandered away from a house where his parents were at a New Years party. He liked music and water. 
 
I spent the night praying for this young boy and his family. I spent the night reliving the fear I felt when Grace eloped. She likes music and water and the day she eloped I thought she found her way to a pool in our developement. But she went to the fountains instead. I remember the fear. 
Since then we have put chimes in our doors- bought her medical ID tags for her to wear- we've had to turn the locks on her doors around to make sure she can't wander around the house at night- we have to lock her closet door- we've had to put bolts on the doors that don't have chimes. 
I've read some comments on the posts about the lost angel judging and blaming. Please don't. Autistic children can be bright and quick. If they see an opportunity, they take it. It's not something they, or we as parents, can control. We do all we can but its so easy for them to escape- you see, they are smarter than we are. 
I read another comment that I cannot repeat because it was unspeakable- that some people could think to say after such a tragic loss....
Well I replied to the imbecile. I never do that. I replied as a mother. I replied in a controlled polite way that the imbecile probably wouldn't understand. 
The only thing I could say was that little boy had more Grace and intelligence in his litte finger that that person would ever have In his heart or mind. And most importantly that that little boy is in heaven right now. I pray that God sends the Spirit to comfort his parents in their time of loss. 
 

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